[Photo by Declan McCullagh.]

I do. I admit it. I'm completely and totally embarassed about it, but I watch it. And I'm not talking about the "pre-condom classics" or the "little - twink - boys - who - look - like - they've - never - done - it - anyway" unprotected sex on video - I'm talking the raunchy, total sex pig, you know the stars are HIV+ because they've publicly shared that information, how many acts of dangerous sexual behavior can you pack on one DVD, totally bareback, bareback porn.

I used to allow myself the excuse that I never actually purchased the porn new: I either rented it or bought it used. That way I wasn't really supporting the studios producing the films, right? About a month ago, though, I went out to the store and bought a copy since it featured a long-time fantasy of mine. Interestingly enough, it was a fantasy that could have been performed in a non-bareback porn, but it hasn't. Not in the totally "real" way that it was on this particular DVD.